If something can go wrong, it will go wrong. Addendum: If something can go wrong, it will go wrong at the same time as anything else that could go wrong.

Five days ago we lost our Lead iOS Developer, 20 minutes ago we lost our Web Development Team, 10 minutes ago our mentor left the picture, and 2 minutes ago we lost our Marketing Director.

All that is left of the team that I have assembled over the past 6 months are my 2 cofounders, 2 loyal interns, and myself. We have a general body meeting tonight, and I have to scratch the agenda. I will not announce the news tonight until I replace those leaving. I feel defeat eating at us closer than ever, whispering in my ear and consoling my weary spirit. Would I die with the company? With a failure, would I ever have the opportunity to rise again? I am in too deep, now. I have to figure something out; a lost battle does not lose the war.

On top of that, my senior design group is about to kick me from the course, jeopardizing my ability to graduate in the next few months. I have a lab report and a deliverable due next week and have not helped my teams out. War is brewing on the academic front.

We have an app on the Apple Store, but it will not sell itself. The battle begins.

We have put too much into this, we have irreversibly put energy into this that we can’t get back. I long for the beginning where we were free to build in any direction and let creation run unabated, but instead the dark cave of reality is flooding.