I am too much of a non-technical cofounder. I have outsourced undefined product milestones, communicated priority features for unpaid interns to work on, persuaded cofounders to run the midnight oil, and struggled to scope the MVP through it all. My inexperience has been fatal, but my experience thus far is launching me forward. Up to this point, I have frustratingly conceived, shared, sold, managed, and defended ideas without the ability to artistically contribute to the building of them. Through highly engaging conversations with individuals who share pain patterns with others whom I’ve listened to, seeds of ideas have been planted in the grounds of my mind. The soil has become rich after toiling on particular world problems.

I want to become the gardner. I want the power to breath life into these ideas; to nurture them, to grow them straight, to father them into this world. I am done with being ignorant of the tech world to which I wish to contribute meaningfully; I am putting my current venture on hold while I dive in to a period of intense apprenticeship to transform my life into that of a gardner.

With my wife’s complete support, I’ve decided to buckle down and go through a $18,000 12-week of a software development bootcamp. After a few hermit days glued to my screen scrounging the internet for the right program, I settled on Hack Reactor Beta. I charged our credit card with the $3,000 down payment a couple of days ago. I have not slept this good in months.

We are searching for a UI/UX design bootcamp for her so that we can both accelerate into the digital future together. We now have a strong direction that we have set for ourselves. It is liberating. Moving the lessons learned forward, I am becoming genuinely hopeful of the future again.