You’re damned if you do take some, you’re damned if you don’t take enough.
Seek out the risk associated with taking responsibility, as it is what give meaning and purpose to living. Your employer took the large risk of starting a company and now you trade your time for a low-risk consistently paying salary.
You will grow 2-10 times in failure than is possible in success. The factor range is due to how well you experience the failure. Even suffering the denial of your failures will result in more growth than in passive success.